I am wonderfully made! [Flab to Fit]

"I am fearfully and wonderfully made"

For anyone out there who is religious, you know this verse has been said many times by many people. This verse hits me close to home because I seem to forget this. I forget that I am wonderfully made, that I am a good person. I have always had low self esteem and my weight has been the number one reason affecting it. Growing up I was always told I would be so pretty if I just lost 10lbs. So this has always stuck in my head that I truly am not beautiful or wonderful until I lose the weight.

Well if only it was that easy because for me, weight loss has always been and uphill battle. I have been skinny, I have been overweight. Then when you add a pregnancy on top of my already difficult body you get where I am at now, not at all happy with my weight. I cant complain too much because honestly I do have a good figure, I am 5'9 with an hourglass frame so I do hold my weight well but that doesn't mean you don't notice all my extra weight.

I have been up and down and in-between for most of my life and I never seem to be able to stay at a weight for long. I am really hoping this will change because it's not just me anymore to think of. I have to think of my son and my husband and how my weight will affect them. They are the reason I want to lose the weight, but I am the reason I need to lose the weight. I want to feel better about myself. I hate feeling like the before picture in a weight loss program, I want to become the after and feel proud of myself. I want to show my son that we can accomplish goals, no matter how big or difficult they are.

The amount of weight I want to lose is quite a lot, but I need to be honest. I want to lose about 90lbs, this is not going to be an overnight loss I am aware of that. It could take a year, it could take two but the thing is I will do it. How I will do it is the hard part. I have little motivation to go workout, but as soon as I start I am happy to keep moving until my time is up. I eat very healthy, clean foods even as much organic as possible. Unfortunately I am blessed with a sweet tooth the size of Texas! So while I love eating healthy, most days I eat too much or I add a little dessert in there. This is what I mean by difficultly losing the weight and keeping it off.

I need to keep myself motivated and I know I will be able to do it. For anyone who actually reads this, if you are on a similar journey or are now at the maintenance part after your weight loss I would love to hear about it. I think we all should build each other up and help others along the way. This is just another stepping stone along my way to healing. Healing my body and removing the weight. For I am wonderfully made, I just seem to forget that sometimes, It seems I just need to remind my body!