It's Tea Time

"Not all those who wonder are not lost"

Not to say those some who wonder aren't looking for something or someone. Some people are lost and wondering this world not quite sure what they are look for. I have been there. I have wondered because I once was lost and I was trying to find my way and it took me a while. I traveled down many paths before I started the journey to finding my way. I say journey because that is what it is, it is a journey because who is to say you ever really find your way. So we all are wondering, some lost, some just going along their way on their journey.

My journey has not been the easiest in anything I've done in my life. My personal self esteem, my relationships, my marriage, being a young mom, graduating college, working, etc. You name it and I have not had an easy journey with it. I think a big reason would be my depression. *Gasp* "Oh my goodness, you wrote depression!"

Yes I did! I admit I have depression, it is not a secret nor should it be. I have had my struggles and I'm sure many other people do also. It is a dark place, but every time I work my way through it, "out of the rabbit hole" I feel a little more pride in myself. When I pull through it and when I can go a day without constant negative thoughts, that's when I show my depression who is boss!

This is all a big reason why I relate with Alice in Wonderland so well. I am all the characters you see in the movie. On a daily basis I am sweet, little Alice who is filled only with good intensions but lost along the way. On the other hand I am the evil queen who is full of rage and anger who just wants everyone out of her way. I also can be the caterpillar who is calm, cool and collected. Yet I have a big part of the Mad Hatter in me, I am wild, crazy and even kooky. Wonderland really is my life, it is inside my head and everyone is just having one big tea party until we see who the winner of the day is!

Now I know what you are thinking, Oh my goodness are you absolutely mad?? Some may say I am but at least I am one to admit it! This is one of the reasons I am writing this blog. It isn't because I believe people will read it and fall in love with me. It is for my own personal reasons that I need to get my story out and my feelings out, put them into the world for my healing and understand to begin.

So grab a glass all you characters, it’s tea time!