Jaxon's Wonderland

"Sometimes even the smallest things take up the most room in your heart" - Winnie the Pooh

My son has already had two nurseries in his little one year old lifespan! This first one I was liking the bright green and blue with black accents. I made 99% of the things in his nursery because it was more cost wise but also because I loved knowing my baby had things I made for him. We were renting so I couldn't do too much with the nursery but he enjoyed it for the short time we were there.

 The second nursery I have been obsessed with orange and blue! So that is what he got, we did different shades of blue with pops of orange. Once again I made 99% of things in his bedroom. Including that fabulous quilt that I feel so proud of!

I didn't do the normal "themes" for him which was mostly because I didn't see any I love. Also I didn't want it to feel like a newborn nursery. I wanted something that could grow with him. We still have not bought a house so I cannot wait to paint the walls and go full blast with decorating! I just wanted to show what I have done with his nursery even though we have only been renting. You really can still make the room feel like it belongs to your baby. Hope you like Mr. Jax's wonderland, I know he does!

 

It's Tea Time

"Not all those who wonder are not lost"

Not to say those some who wonder aren't looking for something or someone. Some people are lost and wondering this world not quite sure what they are look for. I have been there. I have wondered because I once was lost and I was trying to find my way and it took me a while. I traveled down many paths before I started the journey to finding my way. I say journey because that is what it is, it is a journey because who is to say you ever really find your way. So we all are wondering, some lost, some just going along their way on their journey.

My journey has not been the easiest in anything I've done in my life. My personal self esteem, my relationships, my marriage, being a young mom, graduating college, working, etc. You name it and I have not had an easy journey with it. I think a big reason would be my depression. *Gasp* "Oh my goodness, you wrote depression!"

Yes I did! I admit I have depression, it is not a secret nor should it be. I have had my struggles and I'm sure many other people do also. It is a dark place, but every time I work my way through it, "out of the rabbit hole" I feel a little more pride in myself. When I pull through it and when I can go a day without constant negative thoughts, that's when I show my depression who is boss!

This is all a big reason why I relate with Alice in Wonderland so well. I am all the characters you see in the movie. On a daily basis I am sweet, little Alice who is filled only with good intensions but lost along the way. On the other hand I am the evil queen who is full of rage and anger who just wants everyone out of her way. I also can be the caterpillar who is calm, cool and collected. Yet I have a big part of the Mad Hatter in me, I am wild, crazy and even kooky. Wonderland really is my life, it is inside my head and everyone is just having one big tea party until we see who the winner of the day is!

Now I know what you are thinking, Oh my goodness are you absolutely mad?? Some may say I am but at least I am one to admit it! This is one of the reasons I am writing this blog. It isn't because I believe people will read it and fall in love with me. It is for my own personal reasons that I need to get my story out and my feelings out, put them into the world for my healing and understand to begin.

So grab a glass all you characters, it’s tea time!

My Wonderful Weekend

"Have I gone mad?"

"Yes, but let me tell you something the best people usually are!" 

This weekend almost made me go completely mad! It was a jam packed weekend for me. It started with my son's first birthday! Let me tell you that was not a tea party. It was filled with stress, tears and even more chaos! Luckily he was celebrated wonderfully and the chaos didn't start until after bedtime. 

Then to follow that, the day after was my husband's birthday! Talk about a lot to do in a little time. 

The weekend ended bittersweet. I was glad it was over and the stress was done, but sad another year of birthdays had passed by. Especially my son's first. That only happens once. You're only a newborn for a whole year, and then in the blink of an eye you're a toddler. 

It's funny how quickly life moves. You forget to enjoy today because you're busy worrying about yesterday and planning tomorrow. 

Luckily I try to enjoy every second I have with my boy. It just seems to be going by all too quickly and I'm not ready for him to start growing up. 

It's a beautiful thing to have a baby, he is who helped me find my way. In my eyes, he is just full of magic and every bit of happiness in the world. This little boy who made me a mom, also made me become much more. He is how I found my way home, when all I felt was lost. 

“When the first baby laughed for the first time, its laugh broke into a thousand pieces, and they all went skipping about, and that was the beginning of fairies.” -J.M. Barrie 

My Own Wonderland

Welcome to wonderland, well at least my own wonderland.

Grab a cup of tea and find a seat. Don't be shy, we are all mad here!

 

I have wanted to start a blog for a while now. I just didn't think I was interesting enough to listen to. So I decided I might as well just start one for myself. If others decide to stop by and read a line or two that would be great. But life is just one big tea party I might as well be the first one to grab a glass and start gabbing.

I'm sure you're wondering about the title, interesting huh? Well my life really is wonderland. It is full of new adventures every day, there is love, chaos and tears. I have been lost but I now have found my way back home, but of course wonderland will always follow me around. 

I am a wife, mom, DIY fanatic, part time worker and anything else I am needed to be. I wear many hats my friend and I try to do it all while enjoying life to the fullest. I tend to think of life as if my tea cup is half full, sometimes running over!

So this is going to be quite the new adventure for me, wish me luck! Make sure to come back often and check for new words to appear. You never know, you might find your way too.

 

"Not all those who wonder are lost" -J.R.R. Tolkien