Sometimes life feels so overwhelming.
You don't know which way is up and which way is
down. I feel like no matter what I do it is always wrong, even if I try to do
right. I have a million things on my plate but I guess that's life when you are
a mom and wife.
I have horrible mommy guilt to boot, and I often
feel wife guilt too. The laundry is done, that's my fault. The room needs to be
cleaned, my fault too. You're lunch wasn't packed, oh where are my manners!
It's all on me. Sometimes I just feel so unsure of who I am or what my purpose
is. I lose myself when I help others constantly. I don't put myself first or
even think of what I want because that would be selfish! In reality we all need
to have a "time out" for ourselves in life. We need time to do
something that we enjoy instead of always focusing on others.
My sons first year has all been about him, I
came completely second or even third because my husband was second. This year I
am trying to learn to balance it all. I have figured out that not allowing
myself to have some sort of break isn't good for myself or my son.
Life is such a balancing act and most of the time I
feel like I'm falling flat on my face! I just need to get back up, dust myself
off and keep on going.
